I have a problem. Not the embarrassing kind that people talk about during Testimony Meeting, or on their blogs, that make other people uncomfortable and are best mentioned in private but still make people uncomfortable.
It's more of a growing tendency that I have to constantly reign in. Keep in check. Be very metacognitive about.
I guess it's all Lareine's fault (she is my 7 month-old niece, daughter of Beth). I have fallen in love with children. But that's not a problem, per se.
The problem is this: every time I see a child (who is clean and not crying), I have this urge to pick them up, ask them a question, start playing with them. It's a very, very strong urge. To the point of weirdness.
Like today, I was running on the Provo River Trail. There was a mom on a bike towing a kid-carrier, and her daughter was 20 yards behind struggling up the hill on her own pink Huffy, streamers and all. She said, "I can't make it up." I answered, "You can do it!" Her face was a mix of bewilderment and half-smile--she didn't mind my comment, but she wasn't talking to me.
In my defense, I do generally refrain from picking up the child who has caught my attention, mostly because I think that would scare them or their moms. That's really the problem--the moms. Some moms just smile when strangers notice their adorable little ones. But some do not smile. I may not be the most threatening of passer-by, but it is still not okay that I just asked them when they lost their tooth (at the post office), or how old they are (at the grocery store), or which movie they want to pick out (at the library).
I guess as long as I don't try to give them candy and a ride in the car, I'm not doing anything too socially unacceptable. And maybe I'm normal. And maybe this is what they are talking about by "maternal instinct." Either way, I think I better stick to playing with kids I actually know. And look forward to having my own.